Sunday, August 23, 2009

Wherever I go, there I am....

I have had a complicated life. I blame this on no one but myself. Now, I find myself at an intersection and I have yet another choice to make. Down one path, familiarity, deep feelings, a test of trust. Down the other path, the unknown...

So, what to do?

I don't know.

I think I will just "hold" for now and check back in later.

I went to an Al-anon meeting yesterday. A big one with a really great speaker. She spoke of always having a hole in who she was that needed filled and how she filled it with people and things that were detrimental to her own good. It sounded familiar. I, like so many others, love this kind of person. They "NEED" me. I can "HELP" them. And then, what of me? Who helps me?

It's a good question. Is there a good answer?

Just hanging on... barely.