Saturday, June 21, 2008

Rest In Peace Grandpa Eddie

My Grandpa died on Father's Day. Two weeks short of a fabulous bash, a reunion of sorts, that our far-reaching family was throwing him in honor of his 90th birthday. I didn't get to him in time. For that I am sure I will always feel regret. His service was held at a small Hebrew Cemetery in Charlotte, NC.

My father had surgery the day before the service and it is crushing to him and to all of us that he was unable to attend. I stood in his stead and spoke on his behalf and as a final act of mitzvah grudgingly shoveled the dirt on his casket after it was lowered into the ground.

I placed a rock on my Grandma's headstone while I was there - she passed too soon in 1996. I also was able to visit the graves of my great grandma and great grandpa.

So, we did have our family reunion after all, sooner than expected and far sadder an occasion.

I love you Grandpa. I'm sorry I didn't make it to you earlier. Thank you for the dream. I heard you when you said "I'm fine". My hope is that you are with Grandma now and that you're not sad at all.

Saturday, June 07, 2008


It's been a long, long while since I've logged anything. This hasn't been my favorite year thus far. Too much to get into really. The best thing about this year is that my best friend is having a baby in November and we will learn the gender this next week. I'm nearly as excited about it as if it were my own baby! I just can't wait. I keep thinking boy but there's some conflicting opinions on that from her family.

My daughter Morgan has officially been promoted to high school and Jacob to 4th grade. I'm so proud of my kids. I think Morgan had 2 B's all year, the rest A's - in AP classes. Jake had 1 B all year, the rest A's. Smart kiddos. They work hard.

Morgan has a busy social life now. Far busier than my own and this year has marked the turn to competing for her time due to her endless phoning and texting. Still no boyfriends as such. So far, so good.

Bart is still working contract. After telling him last week that he had until June 30th to find another job because they were cutting all their contractors - the CIO called him in to tell him that they wanted to take him on perm now. We'll see.

Bart is dealing with a lot of stress these past few months and it has taken it's toll on him and on us. He is doing a fair amount of self-medicating in the form of beer. After being alarmed, I think I've decided just to let him ride this out without my adding more stress to the situation. I'm going to try anyways.


Anyways, I've been in a funk. I don't know how else to describe it. Trying to pull myself up by the bootstraps again and move on. I just feel a little lost I think. Not worth talking about - no point. Oh well, screw it.

On to today. I'm going to get out of here to go to Jake's baseball tournament - they have made it to the second round.

More later.